final week.

It’s always, “Hey yeah I’ll see you next week!” and “Definitely I’ll see you before you fly off!”. The Goodbyes are never really Goodbyes, yet. It struck me today how the SeeYouBeforeYouLeave and the ThisIsNotTheLastWe’llSeeEachOther will stop this week. I have exactly 6 days left to spend as much time as I can with the family, extended family and friends. And not forgetting stuff myself with Malaysian Food. I still do not know how to cook, ANYTHING.

So my plan for this week is to not watch any tv shows at all, and to wake up LATEST by 10 AM every morning. I want to soak in and enjoy everything about my last week left in town. I’m also going to sleep in my momma’s room :p because i’m going to miss her the most when I’m gone. :(

a different plan.

I’ve heard it a million times before, but have never been able to actually believe it see it experience it. I guess losing something I really really REALLY want could mean that God just has different plans, and that it is just a test. I mean, what are the odds that one day before results were released I got the phone call? It’s fate.

Rejection just makes you stronger!

Whatever it is, I’m just extra super UNBELIEVABLY thankful that I could go to the UK. Whee! Kelly! We shall be tempat kerja buddies YAY! hahaha.

Anyway, I’m settling everything now. Accommodation done, flight ticket done, all that’s left is Visa, and the dreaded faretheewells.

Other than that, I’ve been watching The Office a lot. Like, A LOT A LOT. And can’t help but think that Dwight is sssssmoking! Haha!

Days left in Tanah Airku Tercinta : 30.

twenty.

i turned twenty with a bang. :)

made me realize how much i LOVE my mother, father, stepmother, stepfather, sister, half-brother(s), half-sister(s), step-brother(s), step-sister(s), grandmother(s), grandfather(s), to cut it short, my whole family.

and not to mention my lovely lovelies, the usual bunch :) who tried, but miserably failed to surprise me. :p i loved it anyway. oh my extended family, irshad and nurin, i love you both! and bomby too. :)

was dreading it, turning twenty. well now, i guess it’s not so bad. when you have family and friends behind you all the way, it really is, awesome.

thank you for all the wishes too. :)

ah, twenty, just like nineteen, looks promising.

post exam.

After 50 million zits, a thousand and one litres of coffee, truckloads of cans of redbull, 2 new wrinkles (oh no!), a lot of whining, moaning, bitching and complaining, I am officially, FREE!!!!

No more trigonometry or stupid vectors or complex numbers EVER. and no more Shakespeare and Atwood and Churchill and Jane Austen EVER EVER EVER AGAIN. :D And Econs, meh unfortunately Econs shall always be in my life.

Still deciding whether or not I’ll miss college. Right now, all I can think of is, i’mfreei’mfreei’mfreei’mfree! Maybe I will. Hmm, we’ll see.

Things to look forward to now :-

1) External Dinner. I refuse to call it frigging PROM. It’s not frigging PROM it’s frigging EXTERNAL DINNER. And jeez, just because it’s called PROM now, doesn’t mean you NEED to GO with SOMEONE. *roll eyes*

2) KYUEM graduation and awards day. :D

3) Last night in college — climb up water tower.

4) Irfan coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay i’m babbling I should sleep.

things to do. [edited]

Now.

1) Study Math
2) Study Lit
3) Study Econs

4 papers to gooo!! :D

I’M FREEEHEEHEEHEEE BITCHES!!!!!!!! :)))))))

After A-Levels (IN EXACTLY 44 DAYS PEOPLE!!)

• – Catch up on lost forgotten episodes of Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Desperate Housewives, Prison Break, Ugly Betty, 90210, Grey’s Anatomy, Pushing Daisies, Windfall, United States of Tara, Lost and all other TV Shows. If I were to list down all, it would take me all day, seriously.
• - Watch all the movies I have missed out on.
• - Movie and Box Sets marathons baby!
• - Lie in bed all day long in front of my laptop surfing the net.
• - Fix my ex-husband the XBOX360 and play games till my eyes bleed.
• – Start playing World of Warcraft (maybe, still in consideration).
• - Spend a whole week at Aboh’s place and layan father and adik-adik kecik and stepmother without guilt.
• - Lepak at coffee hut and SHISHA SHISHA SHISHA with Irshad and Nurin and EVERYBODY ELSE.
• - Work at Starbucks again / Intern with whichever company that’s kind enough to sponsor me.
• - Speaking of sponsors, if still unsuccessful, look for people who are kind enough to pay for my education overseas.
• - Chill with Nenek and Atok at Kampung Batu 30 and learn to cook from Nenek.
• - Bring Tok Mi out, and teman her shopping till we dropping.
• - Go out with Mama and Papa and Kak Yaya And Mija as frequently as possible because lordy dordy will I miss them much.
• - Khatam the Al-Qur’an.
• - Shisha, Shisha, Shisha shisha shisha shisha.
• - Hang-out with Alexander Tan Jin Hao and make sure he doesn’t do stupid things.
• - Hang-out with other FOFs because EVERYBODY WILL BE BACK BY THEN YO. (except su ann.) :(
• - Trip to Jakarta and Bandung.
• - Karaoke with Irshad and Bomby yo.
• - Play stupid games online till my eyes get watery and hands get numb.
• - Most importantly, jalan-jalan cari makan, lepak-lepak, play the ps3, and just chill with ‘Irfan.

Dude, I so can’t wait.

half way.

On the 28th of March 2009, I noticed something on the sidebar of my desktop, and it got me quite excited. After days and days and days, it finally FINALLY seems to be moving.

More than half way, now. And I am, happy. :)

Besides that, this means that in less than 2 months, I’ll be done here at KYUEM! Done with A-Levels finally! I am still deciding whether or not I will miss it. Sometimes I feel like I can’t wait to get out, sometimes I dread it thinking I’m going to miss everything in college.

Speaking of dread, my first paper is in a month! AAAAH! The horror! 11 papers to sit for (damn the re-sits!), and thank god it is nicely spread out.

Till then, I shall be restricting myself from any form of entertainment like facebook (the devil!), and tv shows (the devil!) and yeah you get my point.

This post is rather shite isn’t it! hahaahahah! woooh! i am hyper right now!

procrastination.

I am staring at a blank piece of paper. This blank piece of paper is supposed to be my Literature Essay. After staring at this blank piece of paper for a good 15 minutes, I have come to a sudden realisation, that no syira, the thousand word essay will not magically appear before my eyes. And no, if I snap my fingers my pen won’t suddenly start writing the essay without my brain thinking of what to write. And by blogging, I am only wasting time when I really should be writing this essay. Plus another 2 incomplete essays. Which is due before Monday.

coffeecoffeecoffeecoffee. hey notice when you drink coffee, your piss will smell like coffee too!

ps: oh dear, if you could only start living in the present, not the future not the past but the frigging present, everybodys lives would be so much better. and you would find, that you would be much happier. so stop dwelling on the past. what’s done is done. get over it. and piss off.

password.

I’ve never been keen on password protected posts. I mean, if you want to blog, just blog la, why make it a private post if your blog is a public blog? But yeah, now I get that there are some things we don’t want to share with EVERYONE.

So, if you want to kepoh kepoh, or if you can stand icky mushy affection, or if you qualify as one of my lovelies which I’m sure you do all of you aww :) Let me know and I’ll give you the password to the post down there.

But I warn you. It’s an icky mushy post :)

Moving on, everything is fine, I am back from my trip and I shall blog about that soon. Back in college now and that’s never good for me ha ha. But it’s my final semester!! 6 months to go babyyyy, and I am out. Can’t believe it’s been a year and a half already. Feels like it was just last week I called Kelly and got hyper with her saying, “KELLY!!! OMG IT’S YOUR FINAL SEMESTER” and her saying, “OHMYGAWD I KNOW YAY OMG TIME SERIOUSLY FLIES!!”, and now it’s my turn to say that.

And now I am rambling. Oops.

Looking forward (kinda) to this semester though. Especially the end of it. Ha ha. :)

Oh, and results are coming out in 2 weeks!! AAAH!!
Oh, and I miss you.
Oh, ok I go now I go now goodbye.

breath of fresh air.

Am back home for the long-anticipated six week break. Feels good being able to enjoy the hot water, good food and good company. It’s been a hell-ish semester for me. With exams, applications and ugh “proving myself” by attending classes. But it’s all good now because i’m back home biyatches!

Anyway, I’ve been going out almost everyday with my highschool buddies (the F.O.F’s), and damn does it feel good. To be able to laugh and laugh and talk and do the craziest most randomest of things (sniffing people, piercings, hair dye, fish spa) while saying the craziest most randomest of things (puki basah? wtf man), without a care in the world.

Spending time with them again made me realize some things.

1) High school never ends. Oh, never never never.

2) College drama is SO redundant. Not that I’m saying the fair share of drama we had in high school was oh so awesome, but at least the drama in high school was more umm, necessary. When I think about the bitch fights, disagreements, backstabbing, and etc in college, *shudder* it all feels so stupid and unneeded. Very different from the drama in high school, which seemed stupid at the time, but I guess it all happened for a reason and I have to admit was kinda fun :p

3) As much as I love KYUEM (umm, sometimes) and my friends there , I can’t help but feel that college life surpresses me. Pushing aside the fact that it is a boarding school in the middle of nowhere, I feel more free, more like my old self and youthful (haha makes me sound so old) hanging out with the FOFs. The level of subtle superficiality in college is so high it scares me. Especially with those holier-than-thou people around. Ugh, I long for those non judgemental days back in high school.

4) I MISSED THE FAMILY OF FRIENDS SO MUCH AND NEVER REALIZED IT. UGH. LET’S TURN BACK TIME AND GO BACK TO HIGHSCHOOL. I MISSED THEM I MISSED THEM I MISSED THEM.

So yes. There you go. I’m just trying to say I had a good week bonding with them, like the old days. We were missing two people though (you guys know who you are). And this will actually be the last time we’ll be in the same country together. Don’t know when the next time will be. Especially since our timing always sucks when it comes to being in KL at the same time. Sheesh. Whatever it is, I’m just really glad things are exactly like how they used to be, and I’m hoping it’ll stay that way.

Oh ya, more things to come, sleepovers movie marathons room service like the good old days, and putrajaya! w00t!

On a different note altogether, I got my first conditional offer letter today. Alhamdulillah. Now I can breathe a bit. Fuhhhhhhh.

And I find this rather amusing. Ha ha. Mr. Jamal, you are so funny lah. Ha ha ha.

study study study.

sudden realization.

Okay it’s time to get serious. I’ve heard it a bagajillion times from a bagajillion different people already. And finally thank heavens FINALLY, it’s sinking in.

It. Is. An. Extremely. Important. Semester.

Therefore,
It’s buck up or fuck up time biyaaaatch!!